helping others

“It is God himself who made us what we are and given us new lives from Christ Jesus; and long ages ago he planned that we should spend these lives in helping others” (Ephesians 2:10 LB)

How do I help others?  I feel helpless half the time, depending on others to help me exist.  I know that sounds fatalistic, but sometimes I wonder how I help anybody.  Okay, I do the laundry and I cook for Jon and I but how is that helping others? I wonder if that’s enough.  Even friends who are much worse off physically help more people.  I really do wonder.  On days like today when it is obvious even to me that I’m worn out, how is that helping anyone?  I can already tell that this is going to take a while to write.  The question surfaces, “Why bother?”  Because I need to write, I need to get thoughts and feelings out that I cannot express out loud.  I really hate the MS, confusing my spoken words. 

Perhaps there are other ways I can help that don’t include speaking eloquently or creating some massive program that helps thousands. Maybe if I help support my family and friends, it is what the Lord wants from me. But, is it enough? 

• I offer my prayers for those that are in need. Is that enough?
• I try to visit the sick, how about that? I don’t get to as much as I would like because my schedule very much is my hubby’s, as I currently don’t drive and we live at least 30 minutes away from those that are sick.
• I pre-edit my hubby’s writing, as does he mine.
• I do cook for my loved ones when I get a chance, but that’s because I enjoy it.  Is it selfish or am I still helping?

I don’t know if the amount matters but the fact that I want to help others.  Perhaps it is the fact I want to help others and do what I can that matters.  Unfortunately, I will only know when He tells me, “well done, good and faithful servant.” And His opinion is the only one that counts.